Christopher Scott

Mailing Address:

Supervised Custody

Background/Bio:

I'm 34, blond hair, blue eyes, 180 lb., 5'6", born Aug 25th. I'm a Vergo. I line in Utah. I'm fun-loving and open-minded. I've spent a bit of time trying to find a person who wants to get to know me. I have 3 kids. I'm single. I want somebody to share my time with. I don't really have any family, they have all moved on in life. I'm in prison for stealing cars. I have a chance to get out soon and plan to go to a treatment center to change my life. I have been a heroin addict and it's been a struggle in my life but I want to learn how to overcome my addiction.

Hobbies/Interests/Goals:

I like all outdoor activities, camping, fishing, etc. I love working on cars and trucks as well. My goals are to have a family and someone to share my life and time with. I want to get a house, go to work, and stay clean, and perhaps move back to New Mexico someday.

So, because I don’t have so much time left, I have been struggling with the fear that I’ll never be able to make it in the world. I don’t know how to act, pay bills, save and make rent, or find a place. I know how and where to work, jobs ain’t shit, but I struggle with being alone, and I have no one to turn to for help. My family doesn’t care. They have their own life. It hurts to feel like I have no one to turn to if I need someone. 

 

I have to go to Weber Recovery Center, which is a treatment place for 60 days. After that, I plan to go to a sober living. If any of this fails me, I don’t know what to do because I can’t do any more prison time. I’m done. I tap out. If I know that I’m coming back, I’m killing myself. Fat-ass shot, or I’m going to make the cops smoke me. I don’t plan to fuck up, but I don’t know if I know how to make it. Maybe I’m just scared that I’ll fail because I have before, and I’ve never been able to stay out long enough to be something. 

 

I feel useless and abandoned, as if my life doesn’t matter. I have no friends or anything; I just want someone who will love me and show that I matter in their lives. I’ve been begging for love all my life, and nothing.